Life is unfair . . . sometimes . . .

I don't know why I can't focus on writing my essay. I guess I just want to write other things. This is why I am here.

Life can be so dumb sometimes. And really unfair. I really dislike it when people don't suffer the consequences of their choices; the suffering gets deferred to someone else. Like me. I am not saying that I am suffering, trust me, I love my life. But I do have to deal with the issues of someone else because they won't man-up and do it themselves.

Once upon a time, I dated a guy who turned out to be a jerk. That ended in the most ugly way imaginable and I am still suffering the emotional consequences of his . . . jerkiness. But I will have you know that he is the one who destroyed our relationship. I mean, really, obliterated it. Stuck a hand-grenade in the middle of it and ran. And yet, I am the one who's still cleaning up after it.

(I don't know why I am being so secretive about the details, it's not like anyone reads this.)

Anyway, I find it incredibly annoying that even though I am the one who was hurt by everything he did to me, I am still the one cleaning up after him. I am the one who doesn't get invited to things because he might be there.

He's the one who still talks crap about me to our friends. He's the one who runs away from me when he sees me. He's the one who has so much hatred for me. He's the one who left me dying, face down on the floor.

Personally, I think he is the one who should sit at home when everyone is out having a good time. He should be the one dealing with the consequences of his own decisions.

But I am just a little bitter.

Just a little.

Some people are just so . . .

This is not a cynical post, which the title may have led you to believe.

I am very excited now. I get excited when humanity shows me its still humane. I get excited when people show me they know how to be people and not animals.

I am grateful for grateful people.

That is all.

Is that so bad?

I enjoy those people who take the time to acknowledge the things that other people do for them.

I enjoy those people who surprise you with a bit more support and follow-through than you were expecting.

Some days, people disgust me.

Today is not one of those days.